And it just started raining. Again.

Oh look, it's overcast outside. Again.
Oh look, my mood fits it perfectly.
Matching greys.


We're in the same room and can't find each other.
The jar lid is too tight, hope is being suffocated.
I want a stronger flow, my boat doesn't float well in a shallow current.

What other colorful, descriptive phrases can I muster to express my sense of disappointment to an ending connection with someone I wish to be close to? I could sit here all day.

Weird sensation, the inability to connect when it's what I crave.
And still I wish to see her again.
Two opposing desires sit in the center of me. A rotten lot.

Here's an email from my friend in France and it says it all and I hate that it does:

I agree with you on communication and expressing feelings. i need that too.

Now you can not ask someone to be different. In fact, i've learned that people won't give you what they can't even if you ask for it every day. You won't change that.
If you are not happy with that, just walk away. You don't fit with each other.

You shouldn't ask yourself 'Am I asking too much" (you should not be waiting for something she can't give, or asking for it) but , if I may, instead of that, ask yourself : "can she give me what I need?"

never wait for anyone to be like you want them to be, or you're going to wait a long time...really.